Sunday, December 15, 2013

The One Where We Almost Died

                The first big storm of the season has come and gone, leaving a good eight inches of snow on the ground. I've done my duty, digging out the car, moving it so the plow could clear the parking lot, and moving it back. For the job I donned my old army poly-pros. Recently, I've been thinking a lot about Afghanistan (it never really leaves my mind) because of the snow, because it’s been ten years since I was there, but mainly because Afghanistan is my setting in my Nanowrimo novel.
                The title I’ve chosen for this post partakes in some sensationalism. I confess we were never in any imminent danger. No, I use this title as a nod to the show Friends, which used the phrase “The one where…” in all its titles: “The One Where Monica Gets a Roommate” for the pilot, “The One Where They All Turn Thirty,” “The Last One,” for the series finale.   
                We watched a lot of Friends, seasons one through nine at least twice, plus whatever we could buy of season ten on the black market. When we first arrived in country, bootleg DVDs ran about a dollar a disk. By January, only six months later, demand had driven costs up to five dollars. (Despite the fact that stateside DVDs went for at least fifteen bucks, we were outraged. For some perspective, I remember buying the first season of X-Files as soon as it was released on DVD for something like eighty dollars. It’s $16.56 on Amazon today.) I watched so much Friends I had memorized the plot of each episode and a good chunk of the dialog. Especially the punch lines. My knowledge of the show proved to be a bit of a parlor trick, if not amazing, then bemusing anyone who happened to be around me when an episode was on cable. “How do you know so much about Friends?” someone asked a party where we passed around Trivial Pursuit cards based on the show. “From Afghanistan,” I’d say.
                In December and January op-tempo slowed because of weather. The locals told us it had been decades since they had seen so much snow. We were also down to two men, our third team member having been promoted to a staff position at HQ up in Bagram. There wasn’t a lot going on in town either—much of the populace had migrated for the season to the warmer climes of Pakistan, much like retired New Englanders head off to Florida at the sign of the first frost. And even though Humvees are branded as all terrain, they didn’t do well in snow on the small roads that covered the countryside. So there wasn’t much to do. If you’re thinking to yourself, “Come on, you should have gotten out there, searched for Taliban, or Al Qaida, done something better than watching sitcoms,” that’s fine. I will take full responsibility for losing the war in Afghanistan. That is, if anyone ever decides if that war was won or lost.
                We sat in Mags’s room, he on his cot, I in a folding camp chair, playing the DVDs on a laptop perched on a desk Mags had made himself. Our living quarters was a small mud building, with a long common room and three small bedrooms off the side. On the opposite wall of the bedrooms sat a small army-issued heater. It was gravity fed, drawing fuel through a hose attached to an inverted diesel can on a stand in the corner of the room. When the wind blew down the chimney pipe, the heater rumbled and belched, emitting smoke and fumes. It kept the main room a steady fifty degrees and did better than the previous heater, an older “potbelly” model that had caught fire. For extra warmth during our Friends binge, we’d lit the mesh grate on a blue propane tank. It hissed along as we watched, pumping heat into the small room, the wires of mesh growing orange over time.
                Each of us had a propane tank in our room. The heating grate could be changed out for a burner, which we used to boil water for tea, instant oatmeal, instant mac and cheese, or any other instant food for which the only preparation was “add boiling water and stir.” The tanks were all sorts of colors except for the white you find on tanks under barbeques here in the US.
We watched a good three or four hours of season seven, or maybe season eight. Chandler and Monica are about to get married, or Rachel is pregnant and the question of paternity drives the narrative. Things get fuzzy in my mind. Episode after episode, hour after hour, we watch. Mags has timed perfectly the fast-forward of the opening credits. All the while, the propane heater hisses on, filling the room with steamy warmth and carbon monoxide.
At some point I realize I have a terrible headache. Chandler would say in his sarcastic cant, “Could I have a worse headache?” Mags tells me his head is killing him. Staring at a small screen for hours couldn’t have helped, but Mags looks at the heater and says we need to get out of there.  I don’t remember what we did next. Went to the chow hall, maybe. More likely we popped some muscle relaxers we’d traded the medic for, or bought from the pharmacy in town. I honestly can’t say. Did we think about almost dying in that small room, our bodies subjected to the unending loop of the Rembrandts theme song? Not at all.  
                The Military Industrial Rumor Complex had churned out the rumor that soldiers had died from carbon monoxide poisoning from propane heaters. There was no proof of this, but after that day I could see it happening, if not to soldiers, then to civilians unprepared and under-dressed for a snowy winter. Another hour, perhaps, and we could have nodded off into a long nap. We didn’t use the heaters when sleeping, and I suspect that any deaths caused by carbon monoxide poisoning were due to using the propane tanks at night.
So no imminent danger, just the creeping, silent kind. We didn’t think ourselves lucky, just not unlucky, this brush with danger only significant in hindsight. And, unfortunately, our Unit’s luck wouldn’t hold through the end of January.

Like a second language learned in college, my encyclopedic knowledge of Friends has waned from disuse. I can still remember the Mandarin word for love, for friend, for WMD (some things are hard to forget), and I still remember the larger story arcs of the series, but the small details, the setups and punch lines are lost. I’ll still mention to April when I’m reminded of an episode’s plot. And if I run into an episode while channel surfing, it’s like running into an old war buddy. Remember that day on the firebase? The one where…

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